much better

Feel much better after I voice it out… should do it more often… then i wont thk a lot too... y I share it here but nt at fb, the whole world will know if I say at fb… family, lecturer, coach, fren, teacher, etc… thk twice b4 share smth over there… nt much diff compare to advertise to newspaper… eventually, feel it is more effective…

Gardenia bread + kaya, milo + marie biscuit n magi mee is my usually meal of the day for me… at least it serve me a meal per day…

Gotta ask sis bring back all my colourfull shirt… red, orange n yellow… can wear it, but I respect my grandpa… is nt a ‘red occasion’… I still prefer to keep it… half of my badm shirt is colorful.. nt much choice left… hope I can teach less class… might end it up by the end of march… then can fully conc on my own stuff… money is nt easy to earn!!!

Will about abt my financial plan next… ^^

at last...

Finally I found another place to share thgs… I duno who will b here, so I just share wateva I want to… sorry in advance if I hurt u…

Grandpa, so sorry, yday I accidently ate a piece of chicken without realizing it… after that I just rmb… very sorry… I will ganti balik… 49 days is nt that tough, the toughest part is to get smth to eat…1 meal per day is minimum n 2 meal is maximum 4 me nw… auntie’s meal smtm r fill with meat as well, is hard to get a vegetarian food actually… watching people eat meat is not that tough either, as I said, this is for u, grandpa…

Grandma, guess she is quite lonely at home… try to call back as often as I can… n go back as often as I can too… hope she strike more lottery, then she will b happier… 1month + left for me at penang, will try to enjoy it as much as I can as well…

Dad, know u missing grandpa a lot, letting him go is better than we c him suffer eday… day by day, grandpa is growing thinner n thinner… finally, he having a good slp now… he did nt go, forever he will live in our heart… be strong dad, grandpa want us to continue with our life, don’t b sad as that is not what he want us to be, he is watching us now right up there…

u… had some misunderstanding last week… the feeling change a little after that… the thg we talk… the way we talk… I dun like it… I wanna go back… n get a hug frm u… n evythg will b over…but I cant afford to go back nw… a lot of stuff need to b done here… wait for me, k… 4 more weeks, I will back 4 a few day… just wait for me…

had a more relax week on this week compare to last week… no need to teach so many cls, have more time to do my stuff, eventually I waste more time as well… generate about rm100 for all the classes I taught last week… this week n next week, total up also might nt be as much as last week… but, I prefer to teach less class nw as I need time to write thesis, is nt smth easy, takes time to do it… can earn money when I free, but not nw… sorry coach…

attend a meeting which last about 4 hour + today… the panel make decision is not that consistent… students with same qualification but can get diff award…I should have voice out earlier, ending up myself n the team suffered… should get higher award with my qualification, but they miss it… sorry, I tried my best to fight for ur olahragawan award, but u din won it… congrats, u won olahragawati award… I fight n voted for u… fill up the form better next time in ur qualification, luckily I browse thru it…

starting to lose the hunger on badminton, as I will wish to spend more time getting the thesis done… it is troubling me a lot, thinking day n night about the info that should be write… will roll it up soon… just wish to play more game rather than training, enjoy frm gameplay, suffer from training… this year nt really sure whether will go for masum or nt…

cont with OB now… will start thesis soon… stay tune…

TI NIGHT

Yday was my sch night, TI NIGHT… (a round of applause for the committee member) u guys did a good job… just MC got a little prob… other than that, the program, the flow, the activities, especially the theme, (GARBALICIOUS) u guys did it… even the dean also praise the theme…

This year TI NIGHT was diff for me compare to last year, coz this time, all my Chinese coursemate went to the dinner expect 2 coursemate… it was a good night, as all of us dress in handsomely n prettily, take photos, had a dinner, n had fun… my class member are more this time, so I dare to play more, shouting here n there, last year, I was just sitting there quietly only, haha… won a little small gift for giving the correct answer in ‘TEST YOUR MEMORY GAME’… Lucky draw, last year prizes are more attractive, a lot of big prizes, this year there’s only 3… but there’s good, coz is hard to find sponsorship, myself also haven’t go and find a sponsorship before… stupid dean also din sponsor any money…

I manage to take photo with all my Chinese coursemate yday, expect 1, came from same hometown with me de, haha… sad for a fren, she got the sick like me yday, suddenly very itchy, paid rm55 but cant get to eat n enjoy the night… but luckily I fast fast go take picture with her first, hehe…

Performance… bowie n Josiah, sing very nice… especially ‘kau ilhamku’ n ‘I’m yours’… really bring up the atmosphere… the cat walk using recycle item, 1 word, creative… what else… that’s all I can rmb…

To organize such a big event, I know is not something easy, I organized once b4 during form 6, which got about 200smth student, the preparation is so so tough… n when everything is over, phew… I lost 5kg, coz there’s no more burden on my shoulder, phew… well, overall, another a round of applause to the committee member, good job guys…

Responsible...

What kind of person I should be?

What is my responsibility?

Who should I report to?

Who should I care about?

People always criticize the bad thing they do, few Q were directed to me, where was I, did I like this, do I like that? If u are my fren, u will come to me, n ask, izzit like this, like that… Thanks for coming to me yday night… I should not do blind guessing, instead, they should not do blind guessing… If they are my fren, they should come to me n ask me… Just like I go to u, n ask u about somebody else… I don’t know who there are, who cares… No need to be fake, don’t like a person, still wanna be frenly… I don’t know what is their opinion towards me, nobody tell me, how should I know, as long as I satisfied with myself, ‘liang xin guo de qu’, n people around me agree with what I do, I m ok… I m open, can come to me, criticize me, but in proper way la, just like yday, I m ok, can accept… Instead, I m happy, so I can improve myself… Do a task, can’t fulfill 100% of the ppl around u, as long as u got 60-70% ppl agree with u, u did a good job… ( opinion from a fren ) those 30-40% people, maybe some of u are part of them, I can’t do anythg with that… Being a leader is not easy, I choose to let it go sometimes ago since can’t get the co-operation with the rest, but then, anybody allow? Another fren said, ask them be leader la, then I follow them, c wat will happen… Just a small rep in a small class, how to become a president of a big club, a MPP of a U, a YB of a district, a Parlimen member, and a Prime Minister of a country… phew……… still long way for me to learn… Will silent make a better leader??? Let’s c…

p/s : Thanks again for yday night chatting... Hope it come always...

stupid sick....

The following picture may let u all feeling uncomfortable... I got this stupid allergy about 2 weeks ago, don't know what is the causes... Went to c many time doc, 3 diff doc i already visited... most all of them say i allergic to something... before this, i though is the green colour bug inside the room, which got a lot, small small like a mosquito, bite people very pain one... but as i go to climb mount KK, the thing still have... some say is 'fong muo', but, i duno, what it is... went for injection twice already, when it really got worst... now, my body still have, but not as much as this few picture, although the thg still come, but is getting lesser n lesser... this thing keep on n off, morning on, then off, night before sleep, on again... grr... ask sherene, she said maybe is cause of my bedsheet, but i changed once already, n i got go KK about 6 days, still have... don't know what is this, CNY coming soon, hopefully can recover soon, n kai kai xin xin de du guo cny... maybe u all will feel itchy when see this picture...

starting it was like this, red colour dot, n getting bigger...

this was when i at sabah clinic, maybe nt because of the sick, is coz i go kacau nemo fish, both of my hand is very swollen...

n, this is the worst... at sabah hotel that time... look at my body... even myself also cant stand the photo...

i got take medication before this, n the medicine just finish yday... maybe i need to go get the medicine again... evytm after eat the medicine will feel sleepy... hopefull these thg can go away soon...

grandpa, grandma...

Receive a call from mum this evening, told me about grandparents condition… seems like getting worse…

Grandfather, sometime will forget the things he do, consider still ok for a person who is already 89 years old, recently become more forgetful already… asking why he is at my aunt house, grandma not there, ask aunt them to call grandma, but actually grandma is sitting right there, he said that is not his wife, cant even recognize his own wife… asked doctor, he said this is the symptom for ‘lau ren chi tai zhen’.. T.T I’m very worried, since young, I stay with my grandparents… among 4 siblings, I m the one stay longest with them, till form 6 before I entered usm… n grandpa dotes me the most in the family… nobody can wear black shirt in shirt, expect me, coz I have so call license from grandpa, he wont scold me coz he dotes me the most… n often, he motivates me a lot in studies… everytime call back home, sure ask abt my result, ask me to work hard…

Grandma, have asthma for sometime already, that day have difficulties in breathing, went to hospital n check, doctor said her heart pumps very weakly… heart is quite weak already, asthma worsen… L although in the family, grandma nag me the most, everytime say me this n that, but I know is for my own good… just bear with it… aunt and parents is with them now at kluang… normally only both of them stay at kluang… ask them to move in to my aunt house, they dun want, at kluang got fren, grandma got fren to play mahjong, grandpa can limteh with his fren, both of them busy on everyday Wednesday, Saturday n Sunday buying lottery, a lot activity for them to do…

I tasted how it feels once when someone close to me leaves this world… mother side grandma, leave us 3 years back on the Christmas eve… till now, whenever I think of her, tears still roll down from my eye… T.T I accept that all of us have to leave this world 1 day, it just the matter of time… but I do not wish that grandparents to leave us so early… 1 of my wish when I enter and study in university is my grandparents can by my side when I graduated… 1 n half year more to go… please… please by my side when I m graduate…

All I can do now is pray hard… I wish to go back… but I cant… many things waiting for me to do at here, I cant just leave without finishing all the things… starting next weekend, every weekend I got things to do… dota competition, hiking, badminton competition, sukad… cant go back either… just can wait till Chinese new year…

Grandpa, grandma, stay strong k, everything is gonna be alright… wait for me to come back k…

memories of 2009

Hmm, last 2 hour of 2009, hope I can faster rush out a blog…

Flash back the whole 2009, what thing have happened on me during this whole year…

Jan, in USM, played badminton competition in sukad, semi-finalist… Participate in the student counsel election… Lose, but gain a lot a lot a lot of experience… Dare to stand up on a stage give a speech without trembling… I still remember when I was MPPPU during form 6, when I go out to read ikrar, my leg was trembling… Now I can speak at DTSP without shivering at all.. Help a lot during my presentation, no fear at all… Thanks for the opportunity given by last year MPP, learn a lot from them… Nothing else ba…

Feb, back for Chinese New Year… First time as boyfriend status go to bb house… Bought 2 bottle of red wine for her parents… N have a few dinner at her house… kinda happy… Gathering n meet up many fren… Jie jie also come back during this time… Visited many fren house…

March, project manager of TOT for bakti, causing a lot of problem also… Learn how to deal some type of people… Went back to KL during study week… Home happened a few big thing… Part of it really causing house chaos… Family almost tear apart, n when come back for final, still like that… Hoping some fren will be able to help, it went beyond the wires till now… How I wish it will be like how it started…

April, have my final exam most of the time… end of april or early or may, bb came to penang to find me… went to a lot interesting place as previous blog, very happy n enjoy…

May, have my masum badminton training… 1st ever official training… quite fit that time, wat I do eday is play badm, play badm n still play badm… play till very boring n tired sometime… went to masum competition at uum, got runner up which was quite a good result… almost can get champion… back to KL for holidays…

June, got spend about 2 weeks at kluang… Meet up friend, play game… then every year KL trip gang came to my house again… haha… this time got bb, jie jie, os, ks, kt, ss, sl, ah xiao… went to genting… then have big shopping time at KL… went many place n have some nice food… they extended their stay at my KL house coz not enough time to shop n play… guy play game, gal go shopping, haha…

July, came back for 3rd sem, everything have change then… dun like the feeling here… went to botanic garden with prof chan, the waterfall was so beautiful… first time ever see a waterfall… this sem dun have lab, got computer lab only, so is quite free…

August, organize the badminton novis competition… select a few first year player… Went to UM for badminton competition… Lose in the group stage… Went to Asian badminton junior championship, saw national junior team n other country top player, another great experience… got went back during merdeka for mid sem break for 1 week…

September, hari raya, I got go back to kluang I think, cant remember, haha… Oh ya, this month is 1 of the worst during my whole life, detected H1N1 in my body, so scare, back to KL for quarantine, so suffering with the medicine… Ponteng a lot of classes… came back after raya break, have to catch up with a lot of things…

October, it was my bday, but I dun have any big celebration, some say I tiao geh, some say I lan ci, wateva it is, some big thing happen in my life again… luckily everything went smoothly… phew… at less, my bday wish came true… J

November, had selection for Australia competition, almost can make it there for double, but, so ke xi, wasted such a big chance, haih… nvm, I believe there must be reason behind that for me to stay at here… Final exam, aim for dean list after all the paper expect management…

December, can remember the most thing… go back kl, go back klg, go back kl, back penang for training, back kl for 1 week, then back penang again… travel here n there… this time back kluang was a bit boring, not many fren around… during at kl, spend time play badminton with uncle, went to jogoya, wow… hehe… back penang for training, asean badminton university championship, thailand n Singapore came here… Thailand player was all very strong, like our bukit jalil player… all the final was their player.. I get to exchange a shirt with Thailand player, quite happy… back to kl for 1 week for xmas… went for avatar movie, very nice… a bit not happy that I cant go pray for my grandma, her death anniversary… L came back usm for 1st week of classes… trying to arrange the timetable most of the time… n here I m sitting in front of my laptop for the last 2 hour for blogging… got to go now to celebrate a fren bday, boon kiat, his bday is 31 dec, so that’s all for this year…

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS...

WISH U ALL HAVE A HEALTHY BODY, GOOD FORTUNE, PASS EXAM WITH FLYING COLOUR, EVERYTHING SUN SUN LI LI...

PEACE ^-^v