TI NIGHT

Yday was my sch night, TI NIGHT… (a round of applause for the committee member) u guys did a good job… just MC got a little prob… other than that, the program, the flow, the activities, especially the theme, (GARBALICIOUS) u guys did it… even the dean also praise the theme…

This year TI NIGHT was diff for me compare to last year, coz this time, all my Chinese coursemate went to the dinner expect 2 coursemate… it was a good night, as all of us dress in handsomely n prettily, take photos, had a dinner, n had fun… my class member are more this time, so I dare to play more, shouting here n there, last year, I was just sitting there quietly only, haha… won a little small gift for giving the correct answer in ‘TEST YOUR MEMORY GAME’… Lucky draw, last year prizes are more attractive, a lot of big prizes, this year there’s only 3… but there’s good, coz is hard to find sponsorship, myself also haven’t go and find a sponsorship before… stupid dean also din sponsor any money…

I manage to take photo with all my Chinese coursemate yday, expect 1, came from same hometown with me de, haha… sad for a fren, she got the sick like me yday, suddenly very itchy, paid rm55 but cant get to eat n enjoy the night… but luckily I fast fast go take picture with her first, hehe…

Performance… bowie n Josiah, sing very nice… especially ‘kau ilhamku’ n ‘I’m yours’… really bring up the atmosphere… the cat walk using recycle item, 1 word, creative… what else… that’s all I can rmb…

To organize such a big event, I know is not something easy, I organized once b4 during form 6, which got about 200smth student, the preparation is so so tough… n when everything is over, phew… I lost 5kg, coz there’s no more burden on my shoulder, phew… well, overall, another a round of applause to the committee member, good job guys…

Responsible...

What kind of person I should be?

What is my responsibility?

Who should I report to?

Who should I care about?

People always criticize the bad thing they do, few Q were directed to me, where was I, did I like this, do I like that? If u are my fren, u will come to me, n ask, izzit like this, like that… Thanks for coming to me yday night… I should not do blind guessing, instead, they should not do blind guessing… If they are my fren, they should come to me n ask me… Just like I go to u, n ask u about somebody else… I don’t know who there are, who cares… No need to be fake, don’t like a person, still wanna be frenly… I don’t know what is their opinion towards me, nobody tell me, how should I know, as long as I satisfied with myself, ‘liang xin guo de qu’, n people around me agree with what I do, I m ok… I m open, can come to me, criticize me, but in proper way la, just like yday, I m ok, can accept… Instead, I m happy, so I can improve myself… Do a task, can’t fulfill 100% of the ppl around u, as long as u got 60-70% ppl agree with u, u did a good job… ( opinion from a fren ) those 30-40% people, maybe some of u are part of them, I can’t do anythg with that… Being a leader is not easy, I choose to let it go sometimes ago since can’t get the co-operation with the rest, but then, anybody allow? Another fren said, ask them be leader la, then I follow them, c wat will happen… Just a small rep in a small class, how to become a president of a big club, a MPP of a U, a YB of a district, a Parlimen member, and a Prime Minister of a country… phew……… still long way for me to learn… Will silent make a better leader??? Let’s c…

p/s : Thanks again for yday night chatting... Hope it come always...

stupid sick....

The following picture may let u all feeling uncomfortable... I got this stupid allergy about 2 weeks ago, don't know what is the causes... Went to c many time doc, 3 diff doc i already visited... most all of them say i allergic to something... before this, i though is the green colour bug inside the room, which got a lot, small small like a mosquito, bite people very pain one... but as i go to climb mount KK, the thing still have... some say is 'fong muo', but, i duno, what it is... went for injection twice already, when it really got worst... now, my body still have, but not as much as this few picture, although the thg still come, but is getting lesser n lesser... this thing keep on n off, morning on, then off, night before sleep, on again... grr... ask sherene, she said maybe is cause of my bedsheet, but i changed once already, n i got go KK about 6 days, still have... don't know what is this, CNY coming soon, hopefully can recover soon, n kai kai xin xin de du guo cny... maybe u all will feel itchy when see this picture...

starting it was like this, red colour dot, n getting bigger...

this was when i at sabah clinic, maybe nt because of the sick, is coz i go kacau nemo fish, both of my hand is very swollen...

n, this is the worst... at sabah hotel that time... look at my body... even myself also cant stand the photo...

i got take medication before this, n the medicine just finish yday... maybe i need to go get the medicine again... evytm after eat the medicine will feel sleepy... hopefull these thg can go away soon...

grandpa, grandma...

Receive a call from mum this evening, told me about grandparents condition… seems like getting worse…

Grandfather, sometime will forget the things he do, consider still ok for a person who is already 89 years old, recently become more forgetful already… asking why he is at my aunt house, grandma not there, ask aunt them to call grandma, but actually grandma is sitting right there, he said that is not his wife, cant even recognize his own wife… asked doctor, he said this is the symptom for ‘lau ren chi tai zhen’.. T.T I’m very worried, since young, I stay with my grandparents… among 4 siblings, I m the one stay longest with them, till form 6 before I entered usm… n grandpa dotes me the most in the family… nobody can wear black shirt in shirt, expect me, coz I have so call license from grandpa, he wont scold me coz he dotes me the most… n often, he motivates me a lot in studies… everytime call back home, sure ask abt my result, ask me to work hard…

Grandma, have asthma for sometime already, that day have difficulties in breathing, went to hospital n check, doctor said her heart pumps very weakly… heart is quite weak already, asthma worsen… L although in the family, grandma nag me the most, everytime say me this n that, but I know is for my own good… just bear with it… aunt and parents is with them now at kluang… normally only both of them stay at kluang… ask them to move in to my aunt house, they dun want, at kluang got fren, grandma got fren to play mahjong, grandpa can limteh with his fren, both of them busy on everyday Wednesday, Saturday n Sunday buying lottery, a lot activity for them to do…

I tasted how it feels once when someone close to me leaves this world… mother side grandma, leave us 3 years back on the Christmas eve… till now, whenever I think of her, tears still roll down from my eye… T.T I accept that all of us have to leave this world 1 day, it just the matter of time… but I do not wish that grandparents to leave us so early… 1 of my wish when I enter and study in university is my grandparents can by my side when I graduated… 1 n half year more to go… please… please by my side when I m graduate…

All I can do now is pray hard… I wish to go back… but I cant… many things waiting for me to do at here, I cant just leave without finishing all the things… starting next weekend, every weekend I got things to do… dota competition, hiking, badminton competition, sukad… cant go back either… just can wait till Chinese new year…

Grandpa, grandma, stay strong k, everything is gonna be alright… wait for me to come back k…