有话直说...

Tot nobody going to c wat I wrote here, eventually so many of u came to me n talk about wat I wrote here… nw I knw so many of u actually will come here, make me will thk twice b4 I write smth here… but thk n thk… I dun wanna care who will come here… just wanna voice out thoughts in my mind… at least it will make me feel better…

First of all, happy birthday ah sy jie jie… although no cake, no present n no celebration, but u r happy right…

Trying hard to absorb OB… can fully conc for 1hour only… about 3quarter of a chap I can cover in 1hour… after that, cant in anymore… wasted a lot of time rolling fb up n down… so hard to concentrate… had a coffee at 12smth just nw… make me stay awake until nw… n I get to absorb more… happy… will cont tmr…

MU won… lcw n kkk + tbh also won… good… tmr got show to watch liao… hope msia won both of the game tmr… will watch it, 7pm…

Uni life almost come to an end… 1month + to go… plan to take photos with all my cousemate, 1 by 1… n mayb plan a trip after our final… although I guess is hard to make it, but I will try… maybe at least can go for an apartment stay… hopefully the lunch ceremony i plan for all the lecturer will goes smoothly... surely i cant do it alone... but coursemate seems not so free to help me... i just can try my best...

Next week only teach badm on mon n sat, good, plenty of time for me to do stuff… thesis r thesis… dun so torture me la…

Is been a long time since I go out play at penang… sing K, watch movie, or have some delicious food… but evy1 is bz with FYP, even weekend also have to do OT, guess nt much time can go out play… if manage to write out thesis on time, perhaps I might plan some outing… Kinda boring facing the 4 piece of wall evyday…

almost c STAR when training just now... really beh tong...

found that i lose something... i lose my tummy... wahahahahaa... :p

mourn for the dead due to tsunami in japan... god bless them...

hooray... tmr no need teach badm... got a full day to rest n do thgs... gotta get smth as well... ^^

stupid photograph session... tot took it for wat... waste 1 hour plus there...

pity tutor... sorry for kena marah... thanks for the Q...

training later... hope is not a tired one...

much better

Feel much better after I voice it out… should do it more often… then i wont thk a lot too... y I share it here but nt at fb, the whole world will know if I say at fb… family, lecturer, coach, fren, teacher, etc… thk twice b4 share smth over there… nt much diff compare to advertise to newspaper… eventually, feel it is more effective…

Gardenia bread + kaya, milo + marie biscuit n magi mee is my usually meal of the day for me… at least it serve me a meal per day…

Gotta ask sis bring back all my colourfull shirt… red, orange n yellow… can wear it, but I respect my grandpa… is nt a ‘red occasion’… I still prefer to keep it… half of my badm shirt is colorful.. nt much choice left… hope I can teach less class… might end it up by the end of march… then can fully conc on my own stuff… money is nt easy to earn!!!

Will about abt my financial plan next… ^^

at last...

Finally I found another place to share thgs… I duno who will b here, so I just share wateva I want to… sorry in advance if I hurt u…

Grandpa, so sorry, yday I accidently ate a piece of chicken without realizing it… after that I just rmb… very sorry… I will ganti balik… 49 days is nt that tough, the toughest part is to get smth to eat…1 meal per day is minimum n 2 meal is maximum 4 me nw… auntie’s meal smtm r fill with meat as well, is hard to get a vegetarian food actually… watching people eat meat is not that tough either, as I said, this is for u, grandpa…

Grandma, guess she is quite lonely at home… try to call back as often as I can… n go back as often as I can too… hope she strike more lottery, then she will b happier… 1month + left for me at penang, will try to enjoy it as much as I can as well…

Dad, know u missing grandpa a lot, letting him go is better than we c him suffer eday… day by day, grandpa is growing thinner n thinner… finally, he having a good slp now… he did nt go, forever he will live in our heart… be strong dad, grandpa want us to continue with our life, don’t b sad as that is not what he want us to be, he is watching us now right up there…

u… had some misunderstanding last week… the feeling change a little after that… the thg we talk… the way we talk… I dun like it… I wanna go back… n get a hug frm u… n evythg will b over…but I cant afford to go back nw… a lot of stuff need to b done here… wait for me, k… 4 more weeks, I will back 4 a few day… just wait for me…

had a more relax week on this week compare to last week… no need to teach so many cls, have more time to do my stuff, eventually I waste more time as well… generate about rm100 for all the classes I taught last week… this week n next week, total up also might nt be as much as last week… but, I prefer to teach less class nw as I need time to write thesis, is nt smth easy, takes time to do it… can earn money when I free, but not nw… sorry coach…

attend a meeting which last about 4 hour + today… the panel make decision is not that consistent… students with same qualification but can get diff award…I should have voice out earlier, ending up myself n the team suffered… should get higher award with my qualification, but they miss it… sorry, I tried my best to fight for ur olahragawan award, but u din won it… congrats, u won olahragawati award… I fight n voted for u… fill up the form better next time in ur qualification, luckily I browse thru it…

starting to lose the hunger on badminton, as I will wish to spend more time getting the thesis done… it is troubling me a lot, thinking day n night about the info that should be write… will roll it up soon… just wish to play more game rather than training, enjoy frm gameplay, suffer from training… this year nt really sure whether will go for masum or nt…

cont with OB now… will start thesis soon… stay tune…

TI NIGHT

Yday was my sch night, TI NIGHT… (a round of applause for the committee member) u guys did a good job… just MC got a little prob… other than that, the program, the flow, the activities, especially the theme, (GARBALICIOUS) u guys did it… even the dean also praise the theme…

This year TI NIGHT was diff for me compare to last year, coz this time, all my Chinese coursemate went to the dinner expect 2 coursemate… it was a good night, as all of us dress in handsomely n prettily, take photos, had a dinner, n had fun… my class member are more this time, so I dare to play more, shouting here n there, last year, I was just sitting there quietly only, haha… won a little small gift for giving the correct answer in ‘TEST YOUR MEMORY GAME’… Lucky draw, last year prizes are more attractive, a lot of big prizes, this year there’s only 3… but there’s good, coz is hard to find sponsorship, myself also haven’t go and find a sponsorship before… stupid dean also din sponsor any money…

I manage to take photo with all my Chinese coursemate yday, expect 1, came from same hometown with me de, haha… sad for a fren, she got the sick like me yday, suddenly very itchy, paid rm55 but cant get to eat n enjoy the night… but luckily I fast fast go take picture with her first, hehe…

Performance… bowie n Josiah, sing very nice… especially ‘kau ilhamku’ n ‘I’m yours’… really bring up the atmosphere… the cat walk using recycle item, 1 word, creative… what else… that’s all I can rmb…

To organize such a big event, I know is not something easy, I organized once b4 during form 6, which got about 200smth student, the preparation is so so tough… n when everything is over, phew… I lost 5kg, coz there’s no more burden on my shoulder, phew… well, overall, another a round of applause to the committee member, good job guys…

Responsible...

What kind of person I should be?

What is my responsibility?

Who should I report to?

Who should I care about?

People always criticize the bad thing they do, few Q were directed to me, where was I, did I like this, do I like that? If u are my fren, u will come to me, n ask, izzit like this, like that… Thanks for coming to me yday night… I should not do blind guessing, instead, they should not do blind guessing… If they are my fren, they should come to me n ask me… Just like I go to u, n ask u about somebody else… I don’t know who there are, who cares… No need to be fake, don’t like a person, still wanna be frenly… I don’t know what is their opinion towards me, nobody tell me, how should I know, as long as I satisfied with myself, ‘liang xin guo de qu’, n people around me agree with what I do, I m ok… I m open, can come to me, criticize me, but in proper way la, just like yday, I m ok, can accept… Instead, I m happy, so I can improve myself… Do a task, can’t fulfill 100% of the ppl around u, as long as u got 60-70% ppl agree with u, u did a good job… ( opinion from a fren ) those 30-40% people, maybe some of u are part of them, I can’t do anythg with that… Being a leader is not easy, I choose to let it go sometimes ago since can’t get the co-operation with the rest, but then, anybody allow? Another fren said, ask them be leader la, then I follow them, c wat will happen… Just a small rep in a small class, how to become a president of a big club, a MPP of a U, a YB of a district, a Parlimen member, and a Prime Minister of a country… phew……… still long way for me to learn… Will silent make a better leader??? Let’s c…

p/s : Thanks again for yday night chatting... Hope it come always...